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I am perplexed. I ask myself the eternal question: why? Why do I put up with this? Why do I continue? Eerily, I answer my I own question: why not? Why not tends to outweigh why and I move on to the next thought. In life, I follow this oath of “why not” and, so far, no ill has come of it. Perhaps my continence knows what he is doing (yes….he) as I march through my life. I feel as though I am on cruise control. When this occurs to me I look back and realize that, most of the time, what I do is the right thing to do. That sounded conceded. I am not always right, but from a moral stand-point, I feel as though I am on the cliché “light” side, as opposed to the even more cliché “dark” side. Do I care whether or not others judge my actions? Occasionally. Why? Why not? It can’t kill me to be aware of others perceptions, but do I deeply care enough to change the way I am…no. Absolutely not. I am not Yahweh, but I am what I am. To me, life is not depressing. Frankly, life is much too short to be depressed. Ack! I know, I know, that sounded very corny, but that is what I truly believe. Why be dark and foreboding? HA! Why not? I caught myself! Well, in this case, the end does not justify the means. What does one accomplish by being an emotional vacuum, a black hold of depression? Does one get a thrill out of crushing people, making them numb and shadowed like him? Yes. No. One is not “deep” when they are excruciatingly miserable. True and spiritual maturity only comes from the joy one can find in life. You scoff? Why? Why not? To you, perhaps, happiness is a trivial emotion. A smile is only a mask your peers can wear to disguise the true turmoil roiling around inside of them. Delight is a fool’s game, a translucent wall of pretense. Pure joy is a fantasy, a myth, that the brainless zombies quest for until they die, unfulfilled. Death, the only thing in life that one can count on. No, if mankind is not this way. To borrow from a “children’s” film, we are very much like onions. Our outer layer is a front. It is an emotional barrier made out of glass. It serves two purposes: it is the glass that we wish for people to view us through and also, it is the glass that we view the world through. We all desperately want people to see us a certain way. The barrier is a front, our own perception of us. At the same time, we peer through the glass, through our own “understanding” of the world, at others with whom we cohabit. This layer of the onion is almost never truly shattered. Even with friends, we must act the way that we and others see us. If you go beyond the glass layer you would find a layer dominated by opposing factions. Two, different camps that wage an endless war for dominance. This is where the human potential for good and evil standoff. We draw upon these entities daily and one must be wary on their choice of weapon. If one chooses either, he must recognize the consequences of his actions. Also, one must be careful not overuse either weapon or else be consumed by it. Our innate tendency for evil makes it so that it is much easier to be overwhelmed by it. Watch out! Now, I may be wrong, but this is what I believe lies behind that layer. Our true, human nature resides here. It is a swirling mass of colors capable of both negative and positive qualities. Human nature can attack and destroy, or aid and protect, but there is one thing that remains a constant. Human nature is joy. This is where our true happiness lies. It is a primal and powerful emotion that is extremely difficult for most to access. We are creatures with a base of pure joy and I hope to someday uncover my core some day. Everyone should try to do the same. Why? What’s the point of being happy? Because that is what we are made from and it is the only emotion the truly suits us. Why? Why not?